Indifference ⋅ “marked by a lack of interest, enthusiasm, or concern for something”
I’ve come to the realization that ultimate freedom lies behind indifference.
You see, in life you will often be put in situations outside of your control.
The more you worry about those things, the more stress you accumulate.
The more stress you have, the more anxiety ramps up.
Basically, the more you give a fuck about things the more shitty you will feel.
Now don’t get me wrong. It’s okay to care about certain things (Fuck… Why do i suddenly feel like im writing like that insufferable douchebag Mark Manson?). I mean sure, you can absolutely care about your health (as you should), your wallet, your loved ones. But it’s only when it gets to the point where you begin to care way too much about certain things, including those mentioned above, that things do start to get tricky.
Sure our primate ancestors had to care right, i mean, that's how they survived, they had to care about certain things. Things like keeping the fire going, worrying about predators, the elements, etc. But it’s the limited amount of things that they had to care about that separates their worries from ours (then again who knows, I've never had a beer with a caveman before).
The point is, in our rat race society, we worry way too fucking much about seemingly nothing. And that causes anxiety, stress and depression. The big 3 of mental health. And ultimately for what though? Ultimately it’s a zero sum game where everybody loses and ends up with more canker sores, pimples, and nicks on your balls that one can count.
My remedy to this is doing exactly the opposite. Not worrying. Crazy right?
We tend to over analyze and perceive most things as greater than they really are. That’s the trap of big picture like thinking. It makes you feel like you have a justification for worrying so much about x thing, and therefore your stress is completely normal and valid. But that to me is ridiculous.
Why worry?
Hakuna matata right? That fat pig and ugly rat were definitely on to something.
If you wanna talk big picture shit, why not mention our inevitable death? We all die! HA! So what? So what if this fucker cut me off in traffic? So what if he fucked my wife? Who knows how horribly he will end up. How tragically his life story ends. We are all wanderers here. Simply running around trying to make use of our limited time.
When you realize that in 5, 10, 15, 20 years (if you’re unlucky enough) that none of this will matter then, congratulations my friend. You have now entered the kingdom of Nirvana or whatever. Yes cause and effect does exist, yes karma is a real thing, but when you start to look at it from a point of finitude, then you’ll begin to see just how ultimately silly this game of life really is.
So don’t take yourself or others so seriously. Stop over analyzing and comparing yourself to others and constantly complaining about so and so. Stop stressing about the past, don’t care about your future (that sounds kinda fucked up let me rephrase that), I mean care at least a little bit about your future, but don't get stuck in the now worrying yourself to death.
Think of all the indifference you’ve experienced against you in your life and find freedom in that also. They never cared about your feelings. So why should you even care about them at all? We are all like this. This is not groundbreaking shit i am saying. We have to feed ourselves at the end of the day.
It also helps to think about how indifferent you’ve been towards others in your own life. How many times did you not put back some weights in the gym? How many times did you forget a friends birthday and went completely about your day just normally? How many times did you not tip and then not lose sleep over it? How many times have you intentionally left some dog shit on the ground, felt bad for 2 seconds, then completely forgot about it 2 minutes later? Indifference is all there ever is, and it’s all there ever was, and it’s all there ever will be.
Because the universe is indifferent it is very much so in your power and free will to match that same energy and find freedom from life’s stupidity in that.
Indifference before anything.
